Putting it ‘out there.’
When I first posted a link to this blog on my Facebook page, I felt exactly like I did when I’d cold call a boy and ask him out. Yes. I did that. More times than I’d like to acknowledge. That’s such an awesome thing that I should be so proud of. Anyways, when I posted the link on my FB page, I reverted back to my teenage boy self. My hands got all sweaty, I wanted to hang up immediately after posting, and I blushed at a level I thought was reserved for redheads.
There is something about putting one’s creations (art/writing/music, etc.) out there, that leaves you so open and vulnerable. You know that it will be judged. You know that someone will say something catty about it. You know that everyone won’t love it, or even like it. It’s scary!
For years, I felt this same way when someone walked into the store for the first time. Ok, fine, I still do. I pour my heart and soul into the store and it feels amazing when people like it. That is my sole motivator to keep on keepin’ on. I don’t always respond eloquently to compliments—I’m Scandinavian. Rest assured, underneath my awkward head nod, half smile, and muffled ‘thanks’, I am beaming with delight.
Note to self: Stop practicing the Oscar acceptance speech (you’ve got it down!) and start practicing accepting compliments.
Finding My Voice.
When I think of successful people in the world of home and lifestyle, the first name that pops in my head is Martha. Martha Stewart. Queen of Domesticity. I tried starting blogs over the past few years, but I always used a voice that wasn’t mine. For some reason, I felt that I needed to be this robot Stepford-type when I was blogging about home things. I’m starting to think it was because if people didn’t like what I was doing, I wouldn’t take it as personally. And that’s exactly why I would abandon them as soon as I started them. It wasn’t personal. It wasn’t fun. I ain’t no Martha.
I haven’t seen a home blog that makes me laugh. I like to laugh, and I love houses. What about loving throw pillows means that I have to wear keds and a gardening apron? In the world of home decor and design, there can be more than just Marthas and flamboyant gay men. There can be me. A fine combination of the two.
So What Was This Post About Again?
I don’t know. Oh, yeah. Vulnerability. Well, to sum it up. Here’s what I’m sayin.’
-putting yourself out there is scary
-people are going to think you’re an idiot
-have fun being that idiot
-that’s what it’s about
This blog is purely a creative outlet for me. I enjoy writing, humor, and pretty rooms. My photographs won’t be perfect, or even good, but that’s ok. My writing will have errors, and that will just have to be ok. Some people will like what I’m doing, some people won’t, so I will just have to work on my brainwashing tactics.